I would never think that I would feel that way but after giving a birth to my second child I started to feel differently. First, I thought that I am just having bad days but in six weeks I figure out that it cannot be it. Generally, I am very happy person. I love my life. I enjoy having wonderful relationship with my husband and my children.  But that time I felt said and miserable all the time! I felt that I am a bad mother and I do everything wrong. How do I feed or play with the baby, change the diaper, etc. My newborn daughter had a lot of colic. The doctors were telling me that it is normal but I blamed myself. I also thought that I couldn’t give enough of attention to my 4 years old son. I felt ugly, unattractive as a woman and useless as a mother. This caused insomnia. I could spend 2 to 3 hours trying to fall a sleep but sad thoughts wouldn’t let me to relax. Of course I felt so tired in the morning that I was constantly late to take my oldest son to the preschool, which made me feel even worst. I didn’t know what to do. I was confident that nobody would understand how do I feel. I was afraid to share with my husband. I was sure he would think I am crazy. One day change it all. I met another mom on the playground.  We had children almost the same age. Our oldest sons were playing together and we started the conversation. For some reason I felt that I can trust her. I told her about my problems and found out that she feels the same way as I feel. We talked for two hours! We become friends and started to make play dates for children and dates for ourselves. We started to read books and research on Internet about postpartum depression and how to overcome it. I am writing my story because I think it is crucial for moms who have postpartum depression do not afraid to ask for help. I was lucky to meet my friend and we can go through this together. I would advise moms to find mothers groups in your neighborhood and seek for support.

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